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Today I am down. Maybe it's because of the rain. Maybe it's because I have to work five days a week right now. Maybe it's because I miss my son. I have started looking for a new job. While having reduced hours is nice, I need three or four days a week. Three would be best. I love my job. It's very challenging and fast paced. I am appreciated and needed. Those feelings I love. My son needs me more. As I sit at my desk and type this, I wonder if the thunder is scaring him. I wonder if he's smiling right now and reaching for any type of toy. I wonder if he realizes he isn't with me. I hope I have done the right thing by coming back to work. Is money really that important? We could cut back on things and I could stay home, but I think of Nick's future and know it will be that much better if I work part time. I have waited all of my life for this baby, and I feel like I am missing out. I know people have to work. I know it's simply a fact of life. I am just being very selfish right now. I am down and need to hold my son.
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