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I have been feeling a little down lately. A little sad. I am not really sure why, but the feeling hasn't passed. Life is busy. A good busy, but still busy. I am feeling a little disconnected from my honey. He's getting his MBA so he stays up late studying quite a lot. That leaves me going to bed alone, which I don't like so much. Our sex life has slowed down because of it. Our conversations are shorter. He is trying to succeed in school, which I understand, but I am a baby when it comes to needing a lot of attention from him. A LOT. I am feeling guilty that I enjoy coming to work three days a week as to have a break from baby boy. Shouldn't I want to be with him 24 hours a day? I only work till 3:00 and get very excited to go pick him up. I like having a little freedom from my home life. I still haven't smoked, and am not going to. I don't have the urge at all, and the crabbiness has vanished. I've even lost the weight I gained by going to my old routine of walking my ass off daily. It works, for shizzle. For some reason I feel like I am waiting and waiting for something that's never going to get here. What I am waiting for, I don't know. I have felt like this for a while but haven't said anything to anyone. How do you explain something you don't understand yourself? I don't know what's wrong with me.
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